22nd February 2006 (in retrospect 23/02/2006)

Well I managed to get through the day as follows:

Cheese & chicken - with a chocolate mint shake

Lunch - Cheese & chicken again with a strawberry shake

Dinner:Cheese with roast chicken

Damn when I look at it I didn't have too many shakes!

ANyway I'm going to attempt to Sole Source for 23/02/06.

Didn't get much sleep because once again I woke twice to use the toilet - I'm drinking loads of water, so I'm feeling exhausted and my eyelids are having muscle spasms.

These shakes are supposed to be nutritionally complete, so I will force myself to drink all 4 on the 23rd/Feb/2006.

Still no exercise, I just don't have the energy.

I have mixed feelings about my job offer - Stoke is 30 (so thats a 60 mile journey per day) miles from where I am and the wage package being offered doesn't justify the journey. So I'm trying to negotiate. If it isn't in my favour then I'll have to walk away. I hate confrontation; which I guess is a trait of built up in me because being big, people assume you are aggresive. Anyway I dreaded telling mmy potential future employers that I need more money ... I've never done that before, however I "felt the fear - and did it anyway".

I was thinking may be I should employ such a tactic on my love life and confidence around men?

Thanks for listening.