Saturday 30th September 2006

Hi there.

I've had a lovely time doing all of what I've been doing. My weight is at 130.6kg (20st 8Ibs) . Tomorrow is the 1st October 2006. I'd like to lose some weight for Christmas and my salsa-dancing new years eve party.

So once again I'm declaring myself back into the race for Sole Sourcing on the Cambridge diet. I've deliberately kept away from here because there has been no urge to post as I haven't been following the plan, however as of tomorrow I'll be here regularly.

In addition I've told friends (one in particular) that meeting is off the cards. He wasn't too impressed with that as he thinks I'll buckle his response was "we'll see, you'll not be able to go without a Monyt's (a lovely Nepalese/Indian restaurant in Ealing, west London) for too long". He of little faith and belief, funny because when I berated him for his words, he suggested that it was because he felt I was being to harsh on myself. I explained that I've been substantially overweight for a long time and my being hard on myself is WHAT IS REQUIRED because I'm ruining my life, I'm depleting future funds from the 'Bank of Me' - I'm killing my future self. Well he is a good friend, but he' cautious and risk averse and doesn't believe in food addictions (even though I've tried to explain it to him and he assures me he understands, but I know he doesn't) so doesn't think such a "drastic" approach is necessary. Well I do - even if it is BLOODY HARD, however like every thing, the human body is fabulous and I'll work myself into a routine in no time.

Anyway, here's to tomorrow.

Much love all .......

Wednesday 13th September 2006 -
weight 20 Stones 8 Pounds (although it said 20'6 this morning)

I made it! :-)

I jolly well made it. Not without some real willpower though.Today was tough, really tough, but it's getting through a full day that really helps my mind adjust. I just hope I fall into a routine very quickly and make it through.

My day was as follows:

Gym (7:30AM - 8AM): 15 minutes on bicycle, resistance working. I must try to get to the gym so that I can have a full hours worth of sweat and hard-graft! My going to the gym is also my attempt at getting to the state of ketosis that much quicker.

Water, tea, water tea. Then I started to feel grouchy and sad. I nearly bought crisps under the pretence of "what harm can 1 packet do". Stress at work and working with some obnoxious people doesn't help.

Went into Tesco with the intention of choosing from a larger selection of crisps, but my resolve allowed me to leave with mouthwash and razors!

14:00hrs - Mushroom soup - with lots of water
15:00hrs - Warm strawberry shake - more water

On the way home I had to strengthen my resolve once more. This time I called a friend and told him how I was feeling. He doesn't know I'm on this Cambridge Diet, but his words helped.

20:45hrs - Mushroom soup - water
21:30hrs - strawberry shake muffin. Water.

I think I only managed 2 litres of water today, if that! So must try and up the quantity tomorrow.

Alas I'm not in ketosis yet, but may be tomorrow? Hopefully by Saturday if I can get that far. Never mind "one day at a time" right now I'm taking it 'one hour at a time' until further notice....

Thanks for listening ... my goad is still 10 stones 8 pounds.

xxx

Sunday 3rd Sept?

At least I think that's the date.

I've come back from my holiday. There is a HUGE moth in the house; the cheeky blighter snuck in whilst I was dragging my heavy suitcase through the door. It's made me a bag of nerves. The largest moth i've ever seen.

I haven't weighed myself, but I know I've put on LOADS of weight, but that's to be expected with what I ate. I think the best time to weigh myself would be in the morning when all my food has digested ...

.... the scales show 20st 8.5Ibs at the moment.

Back tomorrow with analysis of my first day on Cambridge. Hopefully a miserable day surrounded by horrid, anally retentive work colleagues won't spoil things.

xxx